Sometimes I just don't get it

I waited a year, over a year if you want to get technical, for this amazing guy. When he was getting ready to go home, I got scared. I was afraid of rejection. So I met someone to occupy my mind. I had fallen for this guy. He was amazing. I am not really sure how serious it is. I am too chicken to have that talk, but I assumed it was pretty serious. He was an amazing guy or so I thought. We had a lot in common. I loved the fact that he loved hockey as much as me and knew as much if not more. I loved how much he loved his dog. There was this argument one night that totally changed our relationship. It was what I took as what made the relationship. He lives and hr away from me. He is 23 and I am 24. We started spending 5 or 6 days a week together. There were days I would go up after work and stay. Then we would spend our day off together and I would try and leave bc I didn't want to over stay, but he wanted me there He will go to work and he will ask if I just want to stay there so we can hang out when he is done. I just felt like he always wants to see me and never wants me to go. He treats me like a Princess. He introduced me to numerous friends of his. His friends would sit there and try and get to know me. They asked about my life, job, religion, etc. When I met new people, they already knew about me like he has told them things. I have meant his friends several times. Its always the same. He treated me the same in front of them. He would hold my hand and touch my leg. He cuddles with me and kiss me too. We would take his dog for a walk and he would stop and kiss me and wrap his arm around me. He was so romantic. I loved cuddling with him and he would say sweet things and I felt so safe with him. We will be waching tv and he wants to lay his head on my lap and he wants my head on his shoulders. He was protective of me and even when I did things in the wrong he would sugar coat them to protect me. He noticed the stupid little things I would do that most people probably wouldn't notice. He just seemed amazing.I felt so comfortable with someone that I was able to open up and be myself. I could be goofy and laugh. I could also tell him anything. We just have fun. I know he has his flaws. No one is perfect, but he was making fall for him. We had the most amzing last few days leading up until everything. His friend kept telling me how great he was Tuesday night. And we had a fun romantic day on Tuesday. I felt like he looks at me the way I look at him. He talks about me in the future like going here or what not. And we have been intimate, but it isn't a relationship based soley on that. I met him on a dating site; he since has deleted his profile. I know he is still talking to other girls though. I don't think he is going out with them or hooking up. He still talks to them as if he is single and looking. Two weeks ago, we had a minor argument. When things calmed down I was texting my gf at 2am and he was like talking to your boyfriend? When I said no I will show you he was like we aren't at that level. I don't understand that exactly. He acts like I am his gf but never made it official. Its been drama. So I have to build a wall. When I first decided this that I can't get hurt. I got brave and confessed my feeling towards Andrew. I poured my heart out. I don't know what I expected, but I got my heart crushed. I was told that I am great, but not to wait. I believe he is my soul mate, but we can't be together. So I had to work with Rod.We have gotten past that. We are cool. I just wish he would commit. You can't fear love forever. I have been hurt, too. And I would never hurt anyonr on purpose. He can't even talk to me. I just feel like I am going in circles. I don't even know what to do.